the tees

i mentioned awhile ago i was making tee shirts. well. the two that are completed are my audrey tee and the cavashawn one.


the process i went through was to create these tees is a simple one. i created stencils out of images i found on the internet. as i am not planning on selling these items i figured it would be okay for my personal use. to create the stencils i just printed them on normal printer paper, covered the image with a layer of clear packing tape, then cutting out the desired areas with a xacto knife. cutting out the images was the  biggest pain in the butt! my finger got sore from all the stencils i created.


then i used acrylic paints mixed with a textile medium (follow the directions on the textile medium carefully! very important if you want your design to be permanent).


my personal final products are below.

audrey - was not a planned tee at all. i was searching for stencils in google images and i happened upon this great one of audrey hepburn. i then looked up some audrey quotes and found the perfect one. i chose this great peacock blue tee for it. it's one of my favorites now.


the quote on the back in the font "banana" is:
i never saw myself as an icon.


it's right between the shoulder blades.

chandelier inn - this one was planned, and it was a pain in the butt! i loved the lyrics


"love don't you leave me at the chandelier inn i'll be kissing every misses with my white picket grin"


so the idea was to have "chandelier inn" and a chandelier on it. it was the damn chandelier that was the problem! it took days to find, but i am very happy with the end result.


the words were done in the font 1534 fraktur. i did the lettering in a charcoal color, it wasn't quite readable so i outlined it in black. it gave it a little something extra i think.

wearable but not finished
mustache - this was not a planned tee but came about during my realization that cartoon mustaches are amazing. my favorite 'stache? the cartoon handlebar! which is know proudly emblazoned on my chest for all to see in a great warm dark brown on dandelion.


this shirt is not quite finished, it is lacking the saying. i can't seem to decide between free mustache rides or a man without a mustache is a man without a soul.


my apologies on the poorly taken photo. it was taken while inebriated, but it does get the point across, yes?

disconnected

i've been feeling disconnected lately, in quite a few ways. disconnected from friends, myself, the world. kind of like i feel on flexiril. weird ideas seem to be thrust into my mind from nowhere. some of them could turn out to be really cool, like this kids book idea i came up with or this how too book idea i came up with for female drivers. i should really work on them.


it's really this disconnected feeling between me and my body that is bothering me the most. i've never felt this strange for this long since my car accident. is it my body remembering that this time last year i was really really out of it? which makes no sense since the worst time was in december and i was fine then.


i don't like feeling disconnected, not because i don't know what's going on but because i have no easy way of actually knowing and i know that i used to have that. i'm not sure if this will even make sense later. i suppose it's the knowing that there once was something but there currently is not would be another way to put it. it feels like i'm drifting without a tether. moving on the same general course to nowhere. which only makes me realize that that is how i am feeling in my life. drifting with no set course.


a ship without a captain - the rest of the crews there but there's no one steering
an playerless instrument - i've got everything needed to make the music but no one to play me
a map without a destination - there's courses to anywhere but no one has chosen where to go


what do i want to do?
how do i want people to know me?


i want a career, i don't want a job.
i want something i love to do.


i want to WANT to go to work in the morning.


i know i'm not the only person who feels this way. i hear about it from quite a few other people i know.


then there's the people who know exactly what they want and how to go about getting there.
was this something we learned on a day i missed? was i not paying attention that day?


how do you teach someone to figure out what they want to do with their life?
do some people just know? are there a lot people like me who haven't found yet what they want/love to do?


so many questions with so few answers.