a dream

the other night i realized one of my dreams. i will live in jackson hole, wy at some point in the future. it is one of the most beautiful places i have ever been in my life. it as minutes away from the grand teton national park. the national forrest you drive through to get there took my breath away.


there is no way i will be able to afford to live there in the near future, so this is a dream for when i am more established and can earn a much higher salary. though i could most likely get a job there right now since i know a few people. but whether or not it would be a living wage for there would be the question.


the fact that i  realized i have this dream made me so happy. i thought i had put them all someplace hidden or forgotten. here's to hoping i realize more of my dreams so i have something to move forward too.


dreams, where would we be without them? living dull, colorless lives with no purpose.


life is....

my task

in my dream last night i was giving a couple three tasks that they would have to complete, a la fairy tale, to receive their "happily ever after." i gave them two rather silly tasks, i remember thinking, "name some obnoxious, fairy tale type tasks like separating barley, wheat and millet after earning the help of a fantastical creature." i said for the third, "your final task is to remove the doubt from your heart."  i knew if  if they were successful in completing the first two tasks the third would already have taken place. they would only have to realize this.

my dream self is smart it seems. i have only to wonder what the two tasks i am to undertake that will lead me to my "happily ever after." i don't believe i am at the doubt removal stage as i have wounds yet unhealed to my psyche and thorny defenses to keep people at bay.

"for your third task: remove the doubt from your heart."

i only hope i take notice and realize the gift i receive when this occurs.